Simplicity.

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

True, Honest, Sincere.

Was it so hard? The reason why i don't open up to people because i know they are not opened up to me yet. I am actually a really easy going person. If you trust me, i'll trust you and there, we can be better than just friend. But every time i gave my almost-all, i look back and i see that i am not the best person available for her, *back out*. Well, as long as my friend has someone for her that is good enough. At least this is how i think, but people assume i am always the one who always 'leave' in friendship. You can say that i am always the 'waiting to be approached' kind, yeah i can't denied because i really am. I don't even have time to share my everything when everything that happens to me are always confusing and i am trying to solve it by myself. WHERE GOT TIME TO SHARE MY STORY? I always don't get how people get time to talk about what happening around them every,single,day. This is how FRIENDS communicate right? Sigh i know i can never have any close friends. From here, i really feel i am an introvert. *laughs*

Who knows? I tried. I may not be a friend who can be there to ask if you are okay today, but definitely i will always be there whenever you need me to. You know, even if i am dead my soul will still reach there. Yeah this is me. My loyalty have yet to be shown out *LAUGHS*

♥ 9:40 PM

Monday, July 8, 2013

很乱。我觉得我的世界真的很乱。
乱得我不知所措。
家人，朋友，事业，金钱把我搞的不能呼吸。
累得我不知道怎么说。
但我好想好想找人说。

我快窒息了。
我的快乐和幸福，降临好吗。
该是时候到我了吧。我累了。
我的心长大了，我想爱人，也需要人爱了。

♥ 11:58 PM

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Had a super stressful day today. i just wish to blog something but i really don't what i can blog when everyday was like project, dance, project and dance. oh well, there was some meet ups though haha.

probably this time round i'll just write about a 21 year old stuff..

21 year old Ideal boyfriend.?

Independent, Patient, Decisive, Calm/intelligent, Understanding, Security.

I would wish that he is someone who will be able to look after himself ALOT.

He need not look after me so much, i mean yeah maybe not so much. just not over caring because i will find it annoying because i am actually someone who can take care of myself (so don't nag, once twice enough) :)

and yes just like me, he should seriously be able to look after himself and not me nagging him the whole day. Be a man! do the right thing! sick must eat medicine right, why make me nag right? hahahaha.

Independent is important. Because i worried alot. i worried about very little small things in my busy daily life that my brain always blows silently. And because i worried alot, i often get absent minded, forgetting this and that. They say i am blur but no, it was just too much things in my head already that i always forgot things, i really didn't mean it :( I wish he can be the one that need not me to worry. And because i am so absent minded, and cry super easily, he MUST BE PATIENT AND UNDERSTANDING.

And i am so super indecisive person. i really need him to be a calm/intelligent person and decide what is good for me. this is when i will put my trust on him :')

Lastly, security. this is so damn important. I appreciate mutual feelings that both of us felt belong with each other.

OKAY END.

this shall be a joke until next year i come back and write 22 year old ideal boyfriend.

nights :>

♥ 2:12 AM

Saturday, September 8, 2012

I shall post about my birthday 21st birthday soon because i don't have the photos with me now.

let's talk about my FYP.

Luck wasn't on me this september.

AmounG 200 students I was one of the 4 to be under bio-informatics group, and among 4 of us I was under the worst supervisor, and between 2 of us I was given this damn MATLAB programming.

And the girl who was under the same supervisor as me is a CHINA. I say again, CHINA GIRL. Saying she is a china girl, you can totally imagine how stress it will be. THEY ARE BUNCH OF SMART ASS.

MATLAB.. okay can. It was totally alright to do MATLAB programming even though I know nuts about it, but it's TOTALLY NOT ALRIGHT when you have a strict demanding SARCASTIC supervisor :'(

Somebody save me? MATLAB...WHO CAN HELP ME WITH IT? :'(

it was such a stress thing that I can't take it at all.

THIS IS KILLING ME.

I'M BARELY BREATHING.

I still have SLEAGUE, SA, RMC, PERFORMANCE, DRIVING LESSONS and TP.

I CAN'T TAKE THESE.

not like I will commit suicide or what..but many times thinking..

CAN I JUST SLEEP AND DIE UNCONSCIOUSLY?

cause there isn't anything I can't bear actually..I am serious.
I am stupid and unadorable to everyone.

all I need/want is to set myself free from everything.

♥ 9:19 PM

Friday, June 8, 2012

Ok this is unnecessary.
Why did blogger change the template etc?
it is so not user friendly anymore :/ tsktsk.

hehe look look look!

I love how my long my have grown :')

good progress!! please keep growing faster k :D

i just want to take with instagram, but it failed to save it.

therefore, i screenshot it. -.- #burden

Some photos taken this month.

They brought precious memories to me, ♥

#RMC #A7 #SA ♥

i love sweets❣

♥ 5:02 PM

Monday, April 9, 2012

Camwhoring :}

aww, totally love kang minhyuk.

he is really a kind of boyfriend i really really wanted.

it's like deep down really like him :)♥

귀여워~ ♥♥♥

♥ 11:38 PM

Look how adorable my cousins were. :)

Kai ting(jiejie)

Kai qing(meimei) -nicer teeth

okay i know it's kind of what the shiat.

but it's the only way to differentiate. hahaha

Can't believe they actually like dancing.

one prefer ballerina, one prefer hip hop yo :D

what amazed me was there they were really a genius with technologies.

they love taking my iphone going around capturing peektures,

& even youtube WESTLIFE video and sing along happily.

can you imagine, they like westlife? haha EPIC MUCH.

so let's see their camera catching skills.

MY HAIR LIKE SHIAT. SERIOUSLY #JOKE.

My family say i'm good with kids,

yeah i love kids.

but i have got not much patient with kids & i know lol.

that's the issue -.-

♥ 11:05 PM

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

I don't know why i'm born full with hope.

i always kept this belief that no matter what, i must not give up hope.

but, how many more fine days i need to live to end?

♥ 2:28 AM

I swallowed down the pain. hur.

i swallowed, cause i know problem lies on myself not anyone.

Today i'm cleared to know that hard work don't means all.

without talent, it's nothing.

probably this is what that was proven on me.

i really don't know why am i holding it on.

my brain say let it go, my heart said no.

brain and heart, when can both of you work together?

owner me, feels tired. very tired.

♥ 2:02 AM

Monday, March 19, 2012

Attended 20year old aunt's wedding! hehe young uh?

May she have a bless and beautiful marriage future ahead,

and give birth to many fluffy babies :D

This photo don't look like me right -.- but i feel ok what still got fat face there.

101% it's not photoshopped (cfm ppl will think) or what i sompa.

it's totally just ANGLE only, other angle and real life i look like shiat.

Felt so down recently, one after another straight through my heart.

I'm sorry grandma, i wasn't at a good mood on Saturday when i came home.

i didn't take a good time talking to you,

i felt so regretted yesterday when i woke up.

I really don't feel like talking, all i need is to be alone.

Sleepless nights.

I just want to say i'm sorry to a bff.

i love her and this is why i care over how i actually messed up my her mood.

felt so helpless not knowing what i could to do to bring back her smile.

I can't do anything more :( just pray everything will be alright for her, for us.

i hate myself being unable to do anything right but just burdens.

Another thing, I don't feel close to them.

they and me, just don't clique in many ways. but we act like we are?

yes, all my life i'm compromising to them.

do i have to live my life similar to theirs? why so judgmental :(

feel like i'm dying with these ups & down.

i spent a night buried all my pain down.

it's time for me to wake up and face all, even if i'm alone.

I want to be with YH at there.

Need a getaway, like him.

♥ 4:32 PM

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

It's has been a very long time since i updated my blog.

AND I'M HAPPY TO SAY THAT,

I HAVE FINISH MY YEAR 2 EXAMINATIONS! :}

oh well, 1 more burden year to go -.-

Days have been very well filled for the past few month.

Had a getaway with my family to genting :)

it has been so long since i had a trip with my family.

what get us worry was dad's parkinson diseases.

he could only walk a few hours after medication,

therefore having a great time together was kind of tough.

sadly to say, i didn't get to go into the theme park :(

but at least, get to sit the superman ride!

i'm afraid of rides, but i totally love the thrilled feel!

Guess the most unforgettable moment was casino.

i don't know if i look super old or what that i was not caught getting in casino illegally by 6 months. And sad to say that my brothers and cassan were asked for age chec

k except me. oh gosh, i do look old uh? :( *hurts*

after casino, went 2 days to the pub and chill with bro and cassan.

i could say, this is LIFE :}